A few weeks ago I posted an update called Confidence and YouTube, if you haven’t read my post you will find it here: https://justacountrygirl24.wordpress.com/2016/11/05/confidence-and-youtube/.
I’ve been thinking about starting a YouTube channel some more over the last week or so and, as of today, I’ve decided that I am going to start a channel. I want to see how much I am changing every week and if I slip up the vlogs will give me something to look at to remind me of how far I’ve come both physically and mentally since starting my journey.
Every week I will give you a weigh in update, show you what I eat every evening, give advice about weight loss and talk about how my week has been. I’ve decided that I’m also going to give a more detailed explanation of my depression and binge eating disorder, because I know that I’m not only person who has experienced depression at some point in their lives or is going through the same long and difficult process right now.
I’ve decided that I am going to post my Slimming World videos on Fridays, which is the day after I weigh in, so everything that happened at group the night before will still be fresh in my mind.
I am currently filming an update for my last weigh in so if you’d like to subscribe to my channel so that you don’t miss a video you will find me here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCnYmhj9XLUiG_g8h_k81qjg (160lbslighterlife).
You can follow me on Twitter here: https://twitter.com/Gennie_2909.
You can also follow me on Instagram here: https://www.instagram.com/1995_gennie_sw/.
So, in a week when Donald Trump became the president of the United States, I lost 2.5lbs. On top of that I finally got my 1 stone award by 0.5lbs; I would’ve gotten it the week before but frustratingly I stepped on the scales only to find that I had managed to lose 0.5lbs. To say I was annoyed is a massive understatement.
Despite my disappointment at the scales, I did learn something quite important to the success of my weight loss journey that I probably should’ve known when I started at Slimming World. It’s the reason why I’ve managed to lose four stone more than once in the last two years.
For me stress has a bigger impact on my weight losses than anything else; it doesn’t matter how much exercise I do. If I don’t stress or worry about what’s going to happen when I stand on the scales at the end of each week, I get bigger losses. Knowing this is all well and good until Wednesday night, which I’ve started calling Wednesday Night Worries, that’s when I poke, prod and pinch myself while looking in the mirror and come to the conclusion that I haven’t lost anything at all that week.
My weight loss goal for the end of this year is to lose another 10kgs, which will mean that I will have lost 40kgs in one year, (40kgs/88lbs/6 stone 4lbs). As of right now I have lost 29.9kgs (29.9kgs/66lbs/4 stone 10lbs), which means that I only need to lose 10.1kgs (10kgs/22lbs/1 stone 8lbs) to achieve my goal. Now, given that I’ve only ever managed to lose about 4 stone up until now, the thought of being able to tell people that I’ve lost 6 stone in less than a year would be amazing.
Losing 6 stone won’t be the end of my weight loss journey because I will still have another 5 stone 7lbs (34kgs/77lbs/5 stone 7lbs) to lose before I will be anywhere near a healthy weight range. It would be a great start to 2017 knowing that I have a very achievable amount of weight left to lose.
That will be a total of 74kgs/16lbs/11 stone 9lbs lost in about two years, and as a person who has struggled for most of their life with food addiction, compulsive eating and depression that would be an achievement that would prove that you should never judge a book by its cover.
How’re you all doing now that the coldness of November has started to set in? It’s currently half past four in the afternoon and the skies across the United Kingdom are officially black, I don’t mind it when the nights get longer in October but I hate the way it creeps up on me in November.
My Slimming World weigh in went okay this week, I lost half a pound which was a massive disappointment considering I’m two pounds away from losing a stone on Slimming World and I lost three and a half pounds the week before. I honestly didn’t think that I would last very long on Slimming World’s Extra Easy Plan, but after twelve weeks I’m proud of the fact that I’ve lost an average of one pound a week.
Before I started losing weight, I had no confidence in myself or anything I had done or wanted to do for my future. I wanted to be an author or journalist, but had no faith in my abilities, as a result no one ever had the opportunity to read my stories. I did a course in creative writing at Open University and I think it gave me the confidence boost I needed for my writing, after that course finished my style of writing grew at the same rate as my confidence.
I watch a lot of weight loss videos on YouTube to find the motivation I needed to start my weight loss journey, and I could never understand how plus sized women could have the confidence to film and post a vlog of any kind without worrying about what the trolls will have to say. I certainly wouldn’t have had that confidence three years ago but now I understand that to get the confidence I need for YouTube, I needed to start being selfish and do something about my weight for no one else but myself.
I know that I haven’t posted any updates for a while and because I feel like I’m letting you down by not posting something, I decided to make some changes and start my own YouTube channel as a new home for my updates. As of right now, I don’t have the finer details of how my YouTube channel would work set in stone, but what I can say for certain is that the vlogs will be posted on Fridays because I weigh in on Thursday evenings and by the time I get home it’s almost ten o’clock at night so depending on timings from week to week I should be able to have my update filmed and uploaded by sometime Friday afternoon.
I still plan to post things on here but how would you feel if I did start filming my weekly Slimming World updates instead of blogging them?
This week’s post is a short one because although life has been very chaotic for the last month or so, none of it has been worth blogging about. I’ve tried to write something but with a lack of motivation nothing comes of it.
Thursday marked the end of my ninth week at Slimming World, which happens to be the longest I’ve stuck with something like Slimming World to lose weight. I’ve tried Weight Watchers, a complete nightmare that I don’t want to repeat ever again, I’ve tried SlimFast milkshakes because it was something I remember my Mum using to lose weight, I’ve been tricked into trying protein shakes by TOWIE celebs and YouTube reviewers, I lasted about three months and having two shakes a day didn’t work in the slightest.
I joined the gym and it made a big difference. I lost four stone at least four times and kept finding it again. Its kind of become a curse for me to lose four stone and not get much further; even when I know that it’s now or never and it probably didn’t help that I hadn’t stopped binge eating on crisps and sweets everyday. But something changed in my head on my cousins birthday back in April this year and I started taking my fifth attempt at loosing weight a lot more seriously.
My cousin’s sister-in-law to be suggested to me that I try Slimming World and for once someone else’s advice on losing weight actually worked, but only if you don’t count what happened on the scales in the week before my birthday. I’m not proud of it but I gained 4.5lbs that week, what a great twenty-first birthday present that was.
It might sound very strange but having the gain, which I knew would come eventually, made me more motivated to do everything I can in between group sessions to get the biggest losses I can. So I’ve gone from not wanting to lose more than two pounds a week to wanting to lose as much as I can every week. So, my group leader was right when she said that I could be losing a lot more weight each week; I didn’t have the motivation to achieve big losses.
I’m very proud to tell you that I lost 3.5 pounds this week, which is the most I’ve lost in the whole ten weeks! So I’m keeping my fingers crossed for another good loss like this, preferably above 4 pounds but as long as it’s a loss that’s the most important thing.
Lot’s of love,
Thursday marked the end of my second week as a Slimming World member and I’ve learnt something very important. Always make sure you wear the same shoes for your weekly weigh in because it really does affect the scales if you don’t. I made the mistake of wearing steel toe capped boots and it added two pounds of weight! I won’t be making that mistake again in a hurry.
This week I lost one pound which is really good because it means that I’m finally heading in the right direction by not gaining or maintaining weight each week. I’m wasn’t disappointed in my loss until I spoke to my group leader after group was over for the night. It wasn’t the most encouraging conversation I’ve had with anyone.
Essentially what she probably thought was very helpful advice that would help me to improve my weight loss numbers came across as more of a lecture and not encouraging in the slightest. Basically she looked over my food diary for the week and told me that I could lose even more weight every week if I doubled the amount of vegetables I eat at every meal. This is true and something that I could very easily do; but there is one very big reason why I probably won’t do that.
One of the main rules about Slimming World is that the only limitation is your appetite. I don’t have the biggest appetite in the world and that’s my biggest hurdle. I only eat two meals a day, always breakfast and dinner, because eating any more than that leaves me feeling sick. I sometimes snack on fruit or a packet of pop chips in between because I know that it will fill me up without actually filling me up. So, unless I want to only eat a plate of vegetables every evening the chances of me doubling my vegetable intake are really slim.
When I joined three weeks ago I had a very stubborn four pounds that I was determined to lose because it meant another stone lost. I decided that if I could lose that weight in the first four weeks I would keep going with Slimming World until I reached my target weight.
At the moment I’ve lost two and a half pounds in weight and I’m on week three which means that I’m pretty much where I want to be despite people telling me that I need to do more and that I’m eating vegetables wrong by mixing them into meals. (That’s my completely unsupportive Granddad’s opinion on what I’m doing to change my life.)
I mean some people are able to lose seven stone in less than a year, which is amazing and very motivational but not because I want to lose that much weight so quickly. I need to loose seven stone but I don’t want to do it so quickly that I end up with saggy skin which happens to a lot of people when they lose a large amount of weight in a short space of time.
I would love to lose more than that every week but right now I’m still adjusting to life as a former extreme binge eater, learning which fruit and vegetables I actually enjoy eating and getting used to having fruit as snacks and vegetables with every evening meal so the chances of me loosing more than a pound at the moment are slim to say the least.
Is there anything wrong with me wanting to lose a healthy amount of weight every week instead of intentionally losing close to a stone every week?
This week marks the end of my first week as a member of Slimming World and I’m very proud to tell you that I’ve lost 1.5lbs. Sure, it’s not what I expected but it’s a good number to start with and when it’s added to the amount of weight I’ve already lost it takes me up to a grand total of 61.5lbs of weight lost in the last four months. Given how badly I’ve done with weight loss in the past I am beyond proud of what I’ve achieved so far this year.
For the last few weeks my weight has been very stubborn about coming off; nothing I did would make the pounds shift. I needed more than working out in the gym and eating as healthily as I can to achieve my goal of being able to walk into any clothes shop and not feel embarrassed because they don’t have my size. Joining Slimming World is my last hope, I need this to work to be able to achieve my goal weight.
I drove to my first meeting with my belly full of butterflies. What if I was the youngest person there? What if I was the biggest person in the room? What if I’m the only new member joining that week? What if it was like Weight Watchers all over again? All of these unanswerable questions had been flooding my brain for most of the day; not having answers did nothing to calm my nerves. I hadn’t felt this nervous since my first day at college.
My first weigh in was okay, I didn’t feel depressed or angry about the number on the scales. I felt proud of myself because although I’m still not a healthy weight; I’m not the beyond overweight person I used to be, which, given my history with being weighed regularly, is a very big achievement.
The first full week of being on the Slimming World plan has been pretty good. I was surprised by what, how much and how often I can eat on the plan. No part of the plan makes me feel like I’m on a restrictive diet. I haven’t had to cut out my Minstrels, Refreshers or Mega Double Lollies and I can eat them as often as I want to without feeling guilty about it which is a big relief.
It hasn’t been easy to plan every single meal down to the last detail every week but it has made shopping a lot easier because I used to have a very bad habit of buying stuff that I know I won’t eat and will find in a few years at the bottom of the freezer. (Because that’s what freezers are made for, right?)
Hopefully the end result of my second week will be better than this week!